Friday, September 1, 2017
The Metathesiophobia Diffusion (TBBS #12)
Metawha...?? The fear of change or changing things. You'll have to figure out how to pronounce it on your own. I can't do it all for you!!
It's a real fear. I deal with it all the time. I have always been afraid of change. I certainly do not cause change except in very extreme circumstances.
This last year, I CHANGED THAT.
Almost a year ago, I walked into a hospital, signed my papers, paid my charges, and went under the knife. With that decision I cemented my desire to change my entire relationship with food, clothing stores, my body, even water! That decision has affected many aspects of my life. In my drive to face that change and therefore begin to de-fear-ize change in my life I have grown immensely. The fear of change is still a real and present fear for me, however, I am much better equipped to handle it.
In fact, Just this month I've learned how to fear-set. It's like goal setting, but with your fears. I watched an amazing TED Talks. That little video? Yeah... life changing for someone who has never known how to face fears and get past them. TED Talks w/Tim Ferriss If you've never heard of Tim, or seen anything like this, please go watch. Do the exercise. Read the Transcript. LEARN. GROW. BE FEARLESS!
When I did the exercise, I was determined to be open, and raw. I wrote EVERYTHING that came to mind. Some things were the same fear just worded differently, or with only a small change or uptick in the worry. Some were directly related to my fears of things I could control, and others were fears that I could not control or prevent. But I got REAL. When I completed the entire exercise, all 3 pages. I then went one step further, I showed them to my husband. He was able to see how seriously I was taking all of this. He could see that the decision to make the change we're facing in our lives right now is something I deeply fear, but I am so committed to making the change that I am willing to do all I can to face it, and NOT fear it. He was also able to understand my fears better, and is now better equipped to help me prevent the potential problems from occurring, or repair the problems if they arise.
We both found ourselves taking a deep breath, and diving in! The decision was made, and we're stepping forward, together, stronger, and able to face all coming challenges.
I may have started this journey because I wanted to have the surgery, but having the surgery projected me into a path with an ever arcing trajectory that I could not have expected. The surgery is proving to be the best decision I could have made for myself. There are changes and challenges still to come, but I'm prepared to face them.
#grateful #luvinmahlife #rockinmahbiz #bossjonesnco #notthrowinawaymyshot #riseup #work #bossbabe #imapineapple #HealthWealth2k17 #RNY #NSV #WLS #GastricBypass #FearSetting #TEDTalks #
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
Make Shift Happen - from Mediocre to Magnificence
Make Shift Happen.
That's a funny play on words from my company... and I'm learning that making shift happen is shifting so many things for my family and I.
Such a small thing, having a second income that is from something I do everyday anyway is a phenomenal shift in the way I think of what I'm capable of. Receiving a paycheck weekly, and a monthly check from this that pays me the commissions I lost with my 9-5 recently (due to company changes) is.. mind boggling, relieving, exciting, stupid fun, crazy, did I mention mind boggling!?, and a HUGE blessing. It has shifted my mind set. I was scared when I started this. I'm not scared any more. I'm energized. I'm excited. I'm emotional. I'm passionate. I'm grateful.
I love this opportunity. It gave me back some dreams I thought I'd given up on. It gave my husband a hope he didn't even think he was capable of any more. I can not even begin to express how grateful and awed I am by what God has seen fit to bring into our lives through this.
I'm walking out of mediocrity into magnificence. I'm finding my inner pineapple. I stand tall, I am sweet on the inside, but tough on the outside, and.. I wear a crown.
I'm learning (again, because sometimes we forget the simple truths in life) that I speak what will be for me and mine. I speak to the mountain! I say "Mountain! BE MOVED!" And it is.
#grateful #luvinmahlife #rockinmahbiz #M3Summer #bossjonesnco #notthrowinawaymyshot #riseup #work #bossbabe #imapineapple #HealthWealth2k17
That's a funny play on words from my company... and I'm learning that making shift happen is shifting so many things for my family and I.
Such a small thing, having a second income that is from something I do everyday anyway is a phenomenal shift in the way I think of what I'm capable of. Receiving a paycheck weekly, and a monthly check from this that pays me the commissions I lost with my 9-5 recently (due to company changes) is.. mind boggling, relieving, exciting, stupid fun, crazy, did I mention mind boggling!?, and a HUGE blessing. It has shifted my mind set. I was scared when I started this. I'm not scared any more. I'm energized. I'm excited. I'm emotional. I'm passionate. I'm grateful.
I love this opportunity. It gave me back some dreams I thought I'd given up on. It gave my husband a hope he didn't even think he was capable of any more. I can not even begin to express how grateful and awed I am by what God has seen fit to bring into our lives through this.
I'm walking out of mediocrity into magnificence. I'm finding my inner pineapple. I stand tall, I am sweet on the inside, but tough on the outside, and.. I wear a crown.
I'm learning (again, because sometimes we forget the simple truths in life) that I speak what will be for me and mine. I speak to the mountain! I say "Mountain! BE MOVED!" And it is.
#grateful #luvinmahlife #rockinmahbiz #M3Summer #bossjonesnco #notthrowinawaymyshot #riseup #work #bossbabe #imapineapple #HealthWealth2k17
Tuesday, May 30, 2017
Update Shmupdate - It's been forever!
SO MUCH IN LIFE IS ABOUT JUST DOING IT!
Yes, just do it. I however, have a lot to do, and none of it seems to get done... so here is a quick rundown!
My surgery has been a great success. I'm down 102 lbs, and still going. Slowly now, but steadily and that is super! My NSV's are off the charts. I can cross my legs! Climb stairs! Wear clothes I thought I'd never fit in again! Wear high heels without major pain in my feet! And I am a confirmed selfie-holic. I love taking pictures of myself again!
In January, I stepped out into a new venture. Mainly I started it to get some extra cash flowing, but it turned into the development of my self. I'm no longer afraid I will start something and not finish it. I am no longer feeling like I am not enough. I have new purpose and new energy. It's phenomenal!
So much of this venture is about me, but I'm finding my passion, and my passion is OTHERS. I want to help others love themselves, develop themselves. Do more. Be more. I've always known it was a passion of mine, but I never knew I could make it my brand, and market it in such a way.
those who know me have often commented I should go into social work or counseling, but I take peoples problems on myself and let my own issues slide. It's not a good mix for me. With this new company and my efforts at self-improvement I'm learning to put me and mine first, and I'm still doing that while helping others. How priceless!
If you're my friend on FB you've seen a lot of my posts, and may have some idea of what my business is... but if not, please friend me and find out! We have something for everyone. Vegan, Gluten free supplements and weight loss, household and personal care. It's wonderful!
So that's my update, and I want to hear from you!
Do you know what your passion is? Tell me!
Yes, just do it. I however, have a lot to do, and none of it seems to get done... so here is a quick rundown!
My surgery has been a great success. I'm down 102 lbs, and still going. Slowly now, but steadily and that is super! My NSV's are off the charts. I can cross my legs! Climb stairs! Wear clothes I thought I'd never fit in again! Wear high heels without major pain in my feet! And I am a confirmed selfie-holic. I love taking pictures of myself again!
In January, I stepped out into a new venture. Mainly I started it to get some extra cash flowing, but it turned into the development of my self. I'm no longer afraid I will start something and not finish it. I am no longer feeling like I am not enough. I have new purpose and new energy. It's phenomenal!
So much of this venture is about me, but I'm finding my passion, and my passion is OTHERS. I want to help others love themselves, develop themselves. Do more. Be more. I've always known it was a passion of mine, but I never knew I could make it my brand, and market it in such a way.
those who know me have often commented I should go into social work or counseling, but I take peoples problems on myself and let my own issues slide. It's not a good mix for me. With this new company and my efforts at self-improvement I'm learning to put me and mine first, and I'm still doing that while helping others. How priceless!
If you're my friend on FB you've seen a lot of my posts, and may have some idea of what my business is... but if not, please friend me and find out! We have something for everyone. Vegan, Gluten free supplements and weight loss, household and personal care. It's wonderful!
So that's my update, and I want to hear from you!
Do you know what your passion is? Tell me!
Tuesday, April 4, 2017
The Libido Lamentations (TBBS #11)
Oh! Let me tell you, lacking libido is NO.FUN.
So many patients, after WLS talk about their libido. It's kinda something we all talk about and hope to notice a huge change in. MOST patients experience a surge in their libido. They talk about becoming sex fiends and wanting it - all. the. time. How great is that!?
huh, not me.
Oh, I hoped.. I prayed.. I wished.. because I LOVE sex with my hubs. Our sex life is ... well, I'll spare you the details.
I didn't get so lucky.
That first month, I was in so much pain.. it wasn't much of an option. The second month I was still struggling to get water in... so even if I got in the mood, I couldn't be ready.. :;nudge nudge wink wink::. I resorted to a product (Just Like Me, by Pure Romance). It helped, but only if I was in the mood.. otherwise it was just embarrassing and humiliating to use, and I can't imagine how it made hubs feel that I had to use it in the first place! (Men's ego's are so fragile).
When you have the surgery and lose the amount of weight we do, those fat cells release the hormones they've been storing up. That's why some get a libido surge, (they get more of the right hormones) and others don't (they get more of the opposite hormones). I would never trust libido enhancement OTC drugs. things that have chemicals I don't know, understand, or want in my body. There doesn't seem to be any magic foods or pills for this issue! Ahhh... but I did find a great supplement! It's designed to support your bodies natural functions! When i started sharing my success on these lil' babies... I got amazing responses, and requests (begging really) for the info. The thing to understand about a WLS patient is that here we are NOT wanting sex, while our partners see us transforming and suddenly, we're like a new toy to them!! THEY want it. ALL.THE.TIME. (I can't say that enough)>
So here it is my lovelies! My Frisky testimonial! Message me and I'll get you my referral code. It will get you $10 off, and it will get me product free. Order yours, then you can share your referral code with others!!
So many patients, after WLS talk about their libido. It's kinda something we all talk about and hope to notice a huge change in. MOST patients experience a surge in their libido. They talk about becoming sex fiends and wanting it - all. the. time. How great is that!?
huh, not me.
Oh, I hoped.. I prayed.. I wished.. because I LOVE sex with my hubs. Our sex life is ... well, I'll spare you the details.
I didn't get so lucky.
That first month, I was in so much pain.. it wasn't much of an option. The second month I was still struggling to get water in... so even if I got in the mood, I couldn't be ready.. :;nudge nudge wink wink::. I resorted to a product (Just Like Me, by Pure Romance). It helped, but only if I was in the mood.. otherwise it was just embarrassing and humiliating to use, and I can't imagine how it made hubs feel that I had to use it in the first place! (Men's ego's are so fragile).
When you have the surgery and lose the amount of weight we do, those fat cells release the hormones they've been storing up. That's why some get a libido surge, (they get more of the right hormones) and others don't (they get more of the opposite hormones). I would never trust libido enhancement OTC drugs. things that have chemicals I don't know, understand, or want in my body. There doesn't seem to be any magic foods or pills for this issue! Ahhh... but I did find a great supplement! It's designed to support your bodies natural functions! When i started sharing my success on these lil' babies... I got amazing responses, and requests (begging really) for the info. The thing to understand about a WLS patient is that here we are NOT wanting sex, while our partners see us transforming and suddenly, we're like a new toy to them!! THEY want it. ALL.THE.TIME. (I can't say that enough)>
So here it is my lovelies! My Frisky testimonial! Message me and I'll get you my referral code. It will get you $10 off, and it will get me product free. Order yours, then you can share your referral code with others!!
Monday, January 23, 2017
Peaches & Cream Experimental Failure (TBBS #10)
My 10th post about the surgery...
It's not all Peaches and Cream. It is NOT all successes and skinny jeans. Now is when the real hard work starts. I've finally hit a major stall. Not just the same weight for a week or two.. Nope. I haven't lost a pound in 4 weeks. This is when you wonder if you're stuck. Did you break your new tool? Are you EVER going to get to your goal weight!?
Yes, You will (I will!). However.. it takes a bit more work now than it did those first 4 months.
I am working harder at getting my protein.
I am having to really make sure I get my water in.
Strangely, I think I need to up my calorie count. (I still don't LOVE food... I tend to only eat once a day because I get busy and forget)
I have to walk/workout with consistency.
What are some tips and tricks you found worked for you?
I think I have heard them all.. but maybe not!!
It's not all Peaches and Cream. It is NOT all successes and skinny jeans. Now is when the real hard work starts. I've finally hit a major stall. Not just the same weight for a week or two.. Nope. I haven't lost a pound in 4 weeks. This is when you wonder if you're stuck. Did you break your new tool? Are you EVER going to get to your goal weight!?
Yes, You will (I will!). However.. it takes a bit more work now than it did those first 4 months.
I am working harder at getting my protein.
I am having to really make sure I get my water in.
Strangely, I think I need to up my calorie count. (I still don't LOVE food... I tend to only eat once a day because I get busy and forget)
I have to walk/workout with consistency.
What are some tips and tricks you found worked for you?
I think I have heard them all.. but maybe not!!
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
The Bariatric Bypass Surgery (TBBS) #9 - The Update Excitation
It's been 4 months now since my surgery. Wednesday the 18th will be 16 wks.
Just so you understand where I've been:
In 2001 I was at my lowest adult weight: 194 lbs
I got pregnant in 2003, and the pregnancy triggered Grave's Disease.
In 2007 I was at my highest weight: 330+ lbs
I had Radiation done to my thyroid during that year because of the Grave's Disease. I have been up and down the scale a lot since then.
January 24, 2016 I weighed in at 316 lbs
Day of surgery - 9/28/16 I weighed in at 307 lbs
I've lost steadily since then, and now weigh in at 232 lbs. Nearly down 100 lbs from my highest.
Victories:
I'm almost down where I was when Hubs and I met in college.
I've been this weight a large portion of my 20's, so it's comfortable. I don't feel "fat" anymore. Actually it amazes me that I feel so thin since I distinctly remember being "fat" at this weight way back then.
It's been 13 yrs since I was this weight last. I was pregnant..so.. anyway
I cross my legs all the time now.
I use regular bathroom stalls without having to be a contortionist (This is a HUGE Victory for us chubby chics!!!)
I have gone from a size 26W (Womans) to an 18 Misses/16W. That's pretty amazing.. but I have no clothes. Santa gave me Gift Certificates and Cash tho, so I get to go shopping!
I'm COLD all the time!
In one years time I've changed. I'm finding passion in things I wouldn't have ventured out to try before, and absolutely loving my life. I really can't wait to see what's next!
Here are some pictures to show you my evolution:
Just so you understand where I've been:
In 2001 I was at my lowest adult weight: 194 lbs
I got pregnant in 2003, and the pregnancy triggered Grave's Disease.
In 2007 I was at my highest weight: 330+ lbs
I had Radiation done to my thyroid during that year because of the Grave's Disease. I have been up and down the scale a lot since then.
January 24, 2016 I weighed in at 316 lbs
Day of surgery - 9/28/16 I weighed in at 307 lbs
I've lost steadily since then, and now weigh in at 232 lbs. Nearly down 100 lbs from my highest.
Victories:
I'm almost down where I was when Hubs and I met in college.
I've been this weight a large portion of my 20's, so it's comfortable. I don't feel "fat" anymore. Actually it amazes me that I feel so thin since I distinctly remember being "fat" at this weight way back then.
It's been 13 yrs since I was this weight last. I was pregnant..so.. anyway
I cross my legs all the time now.
I use regular bathroom stalls without having to be a contortionist (This is a HUGE Victory for us chubby chics!!!)
I have gone from a size 26W (Womans) to an 18 Misses/16W. That's pretty amazing.. but I have no clothes. Santa gave me Gift Certificates and Cash tho, so I get to go shopping!
I'm COLD all the time!
In one years time I've changed. I'm finding passion in things I wouldn't have ventured out to try before, and absolutely loving my life. I really can't wait to see what's next!
Here are some pictures to show you my evolution:
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| The weight on this face though! |
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| 2 yrs ago. That's me in blue. |
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| My Wedding Day. 8/13/13 |
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| 1st Anniversary (8/2014) |
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| Easily 320lbs again. SMH |
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| January 2016 |
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| January 2016 |
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| November 2016 |
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| November 2016 |
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| January 2016 |
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| December 2016 |
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